I’ve heard stories of angels protecting people – I want to live.
I want to live more life. I think. I want
to read the books and clippings iIve kept.
to have some tea overlooking the garden
I loved so hard over creating.
I want to play with the dog; and swim again.
to go on a canoe trip. and to go camping.
to travel. travel. travel.
journeys are my escape.
I have no fear of death. I embrace it . I know
it is my soul living on its path.
I’ve heard stories of angels protecting people. I want to use and share and enjoy the china
and crystal and linens i’ve acquired.
what I want even more is to touch
the shells and stones and seeds I picked
to paint. to clean. to tidy.
I want to look at all my altars,
– the chachkes; the postcards and letters i’ve saved.
– my prayers.
I want to live again the connections I made,
the warm hearts and smiles; hot romances.
downright cold breezes on the ships bows I stood
upon — the shores. the sunsets.
I’ve heard stories of angels protecting people. I want more sunrises and rocks to climb.
i’d like to ride a bicycle. drive a car.
polish wood. and have glass shine.
I want to still be the kid on my back
looking and looking and looking
at the stars;
the aurora borealis.
I want to touch fabrics, and wear silks.
crisp cottons. get smartly dressed;
go out and have a ball.
smell animals and grass and flowers.
lick ice cream. eat strawberries;
crunch rosemary olive oil baguettes.
see a movie. and a play, and go to The Proms.
I’ve heard stories of angels protecting people. I want to roam the hills. and sit on a beach.
dance; and dance; and dance.
I want to be able to be sexual again.
to see god/ess in all things.
to be carried by Angels.
loved — that’s it, loved: L-O-V-E-D
to be held; and holding.
I don’t want to be angry or hurt or rejected.
I want no knowledge of violence or injustice.
no inhumanity. no cruelty or mean hearts.
no greed or possessiveness.
I don’t want to interfere
with other people’s choices.
I am ready to go any time; but not yet
to let go of all this life that must be re-lived.
I want to give and do; and make a difference.
to be at peace, in harmony and oneness.
I want to heal myself. and the planet.
and so very many innocents.
I want to sleep now