The Experiment
It was Easter in the year 1983 in Reykjavik Iceland that I bought a Silva Mind Control self-development book. I was living in a single room basement apartment, which was owned by an elderly lady.
I was working in my fathers fish factory as a supervisor and had a three-day weekend off. I was going to devote myself to a training program described in the book for these three days. The book suggested that I get myself into a relaxed suggestible state and repeat two sentences twenty times each, once a day for a month. This would program my mind to make me more positive and stronger against negative influences.
Being an explorer and having an adventuresome nature I decided to do a little more than that. I got myself into the alpha state and repeated the sentences for twenty minutes, instead of twenty times.
Then I re-awakened myself and read and studied books on the mind for two hours and then repeated the procedure again. Programming the mind for twenty minutes. Getting up and studying the mind for two hours, back and forth for three days straight, from 9 in the morning to 10 in the evening, with small breaks in between.
I probably repeated these two sentences tens of thousands of times during those three days and needless to say I got myself into a very altered state. When the three days were over I went for a walk in a public garden nearby. I walked, not sure if something had changed within me, not perceiving any difference about the environment or myself.
I sat on a bench and looked at some trees nearby. Something in the trees caught my attention and as I focused on them to my complete surprise my awareness seemed to shift profoundly out of its usual place within me and into the trees.
I felt every branch, every leaf, the roots it's energy, it's state of being. My awareness somehow totally emerged with the trees. It was an incredible feeling of total peace and tranquility. I focused on the grass and became the grass, feeling every straw as myself.
I focused on the sky, the birds chirping in the trees and everything I perceived at that moment and became that instantly. I was in ecstatic joy of total abandonment and togetherness with everything. For the remainder of the day and late into the night I experimented with feeling and becoming whatever I could think of.
The next day I went to work, and everything was the same again. I was totally oblivious of any change or powers I had acquired the previous day.
As I came to work I seemed to walk into and put on prearranged beliefs and habits that pushed the blissful state out for a while. Then just as suddenly as the day before I made a new discovery, my physical strength had increased dramatically. When I picked up some heavy cases they were light and easily handled.
Before, one box was the maximum, now I could lift three boxes together without any major effort. Later that day I discovered many new abilities that appeared in the same surprising way as before. They never said anything about this in the books. But I could suddenly shut of all my senses, I had total control of my senses.
I could decide not to see, hear or feel. I could shut out all noise, sight and feeling and enter a dreamlike floating peaceful state at will, or until I decided to turn my senses on again. My chess playing powers increased dramatically. Before this I could see two to three chess moves ahead, now I could calculate nine to ten moves ahead.
Needless to say I beat everyone at work, even those I had a really hard time beating before. I also discovered that my "problems" had disappeared, I didn't have any problems anymore, just projects with infinite solutions. I could talk and listen to someone for two hours and I remembered every word and sentence we had said, backwards or forwards.
Not only that, but I could also recall everything my senses picked up at the time, even the things that were out of my conscious awareness. My memory was perfect, my concentration was perfect. Wow, what power I suddenly had, I felt so clear, free and capable. Nothing could stand in my way, I was exploding with energy.
And then it happened. I was talking to someone and he said something, which totally contradicted something he had said 33 minutes before, and when I pointed this out to him he totally refused to recognize that he had said that. I started to feel frustrated and as I looked at the people around me I realized that they were all lost in confusion.
They were all submerged in darkness and couldn't see reality clearly as it was. They started to avoid me and I got more and more frustrated and angry. I started to judge them. These people were stupid and ignorant.
They were unclear, didn't know what they were saying and groped around in a total blindness without any awareness of that they were blind. And to make matters worse they stated that there was nothing wrong with them, and that I was crazy. I got furious, and gradually those emotions and judgments drew me under their spell.
In a few days I was back to my old self, just like them, confused, unclear and blind. But the memory of the experience was there and it never faded, I reviewed it again and again in my mind, never wanting to forget this extraordinary experience. At the time I had no idea of what had happened to me.
For years I searched for a way to reclaim that state of total power, but I was afraid of the intense emotions and feelings that accompanied it. I was afraid of losing control of my temper again.
I read countless books, participated in countless courses, seminars and training's and met with countless powerful spiritual teachers. I soon learned that I had "carried feelings" and I would have to clean out those feelings and emotions trapped in my body and unconscious. I studied and explored for twelve years and each year brought me closer to the answer.
I tried the old method again a few times, but I never got quite to the point of the total control or the unlimited feeling I experienced the first time. I devoted myself to intense self-development and I felt that I was coming closer and closer to being able to achieve this state again.
I got clearer and more solid, but never reached this impeccable total state of power. But as the years passed by and I learned and got more training and experience under my belt in the areas of body, mind and spirit the accumulated learnings and knowledge started to synthesize into a definite step-by-step system that finally enabled me to get closer to this perfect state again without the disastrous effects.
It was a creative fusion of all that knowledge, a culmination of years of training and experience, a synthesis of the totality of all my experiences that suddenly crystallized in my mind. It was in February of 1995 that the last puzzles came together and I started to see the results of those twelve years of intense self-inquiry and exploration.
I gathered my notes, the best books I had accumulated and called upon the experiences, discoveries and learnings that I had gathered over the years and started to write the first draft of Spirit over Mind over Body. Seven months later I created this Web site to present some of the material from the book.
